This blog is a resultant of an incredibly depressed and suicidal sixteen-year-old boy's discovery of a thing called Tumblr. The point of this blog is not only for me to vent my feelings, but for you to do the same. It's for you to realize that you're NOT ALONE.
My hormones make me do strange things.
Anonymous asked: I am trying not to start cutting myself again but it is hard because I often feel as if that is the only way I can forgive myself for being such a horrible person. Any advice?
Well, you must first realize that you’re not a horrible person! You’re lovely and wonderful, and should embrace yourself to the fullest of your capacities. You must love yourself and respect yourself; after all, there is only one you.
Often times we make mistakes and are quick to pin the blame on ourselves. Nonetheless, you must realize that though it may have been your fault, you must learn from it as well. Understand that everyone makes mistakes, from ginormous ones to punitive ones. Why? Because we’re human.
You’re a great person, love. I want you to stay strong for me. I’m here for you if you ever start getting an urge to self-harm. As well, other alternatives include the Butterfly Project, the Glitter Jar Project, etc. You could also log on to blahtherapy.com, a website dedicated for those who need to vent off life’s daily struggles.
Stay lovely, stay strong!
Anonymous asked: Me and my boyfriend have been arguing a bit lately over very small things. But once I started apologizing, he seemed distant for a few days. Last night we were together and he said he wanted to take a break for 2 weeks, then get back together like nothing ever happened. We aren't even telling anyone about the break. He just said we need to relax and let the stress die down before we continue. But I have self harm issues and don't know if I can be without him for 2 weeks. Advice?
I’m sorry you’re in such a rough situation, Lovely. It seems as though your boyfriend may be a bit tired of the relationship, or even questioning it. Nonetheless, if you believe that you’re unable to go without your love for more than two weeks, ask him why he wants this “break” and if there is any better solution.
One solution I suggest would be talking to one another openly and calmly. Analyze your arguments and discover what’s the true source of your arguments. This will create a better and more wholesome relationship.
Remember, communication is key when in a relationship. Without it, there is anger and frustration. Be honest with him rather than try to please him with lies. As well, have self-respect, know your worth and know when you’re being denied it.
Stay strong, I’m here for you if you need me.
Anonymous asked: I'm ready to end it all I feel worthless, like no one cares for me anymore, and all people say is I need to be a strong but how can I when I don't believe in myself
Love, I know how tough it is to have a low self-esteem. It is painful and makes you question every step you take. It severs relationships, fails grades, and, above all, makes you miserable as hell. As well, I know people often seem cruel with their lack of sympathy for those supposedly “weaker” than them. After all, you cannot empathize what you have not felt.
Nonetheless, you must realize that you’re beautiful and lovely. The world needs you, even though it doesn’t show it. Love yourself, embrace yourself—this, among other things, is the only way to achieve true satisfaction. Forget about those girls who said you weren’t good enough, forget about that teacher who said you were a failure—you’re perfect in all your imperfections.
Stay lovely, and stay YOU!
thebladealwaysswins asked: Hey, so I know we don't know each other at all xD but I know how shitty depression is, and if you ever just need to like let everything out and just talk to someone, I would love to help. Not trying to seem weird or anything haha. Just saying ill be here if you need someone to talk to.
Psh, that’s okay. REMEMBER, I’m here for you guys! I’m here for you if you need anything. Thank you for being so considerate, love.
Anonymous asked: Black ^^ I always love hearing this one hahaha. Ps. Thanks for being there for everyone, you're awesome.
1. She’s destroyed me.
(( I’m here for you at anytime! Thanks, love. ))
I bet you can…
Anonymous asked: Reddddd :)
Anonymous asked: It's ok babe, we will love enough for you.
Anonymous asked: What mental illness is biting your nails a symptom of?
I’m not entirely sure, I’ve never had a professional diagnosis.
I don’t know how to love.